Idiot!

Do you ever have trouble making a decision . . .
and then once you've finally decided and taken action . . .
realized it was the WRONG choice . . .
and in that moment it's *crystal* clear????????

 

This seems to be the most sure-fire way for me to determine the right decision!

Whether you have experienced this or not, we're gonna talk about it.

 

 

 

For those of you who do not have to endure this suffering, let me explain:

Something happens that really bothers me. For the sake of explanation, let's say someone said that they actually hated my spinach puffs which I take such pride in.

 

The rest of the day I debate how to respond to this person. Do I lash out and say "How dare you pretend all this time"? Do I ignore them and never speak to them again? Do I ask if they have any suggestions for my recipe? I think back to all the times they said they loved my spinach puffs, and try to understand what this person was trying to do to me, all the possible interpretations of their actions... Anyway, this takes up all my thoughts because it bothered me so deeply.

 

Finally, I decide to place a huge pile of spinach puffs before them just to spite them and irritate them the way they irritated me, BUT once I pass the point of no return, I realize that this person is allergic to spinach. That's why they were being so polite in pretending. When they did lash out at me, they had finally become fed up with the fact that I kept trying to make them eat it!

 

Unfortunately, I already put the allergic trigger before the person and made them start swelling up, coughing, and breaking out.

 

This is not a real-life example of course, just a ficticious one to demonstrate what I go through. You might think that I could reach the conclusion before actually taking action, but it seems like the action is what makes me realize it was so stupid! I've tried to trick myself by not actually following through completely to see if I change my mind, but the changing of the mind doesn't happen until I have really carried it out!

 

Good news: I did something stupid in real-life which led to this blog post. It could have done considerable damage, possbily hurting a friendship, but it seems to be working out. Thankfully, this person trusts me enough to simply delete the message without reading it! Whew! There's one stupid thing I was able to undo! YAY!

 

Now for all the others.... :/

 

*Did you spot the "Emperor's New Groove" and "Phantom of the Opera" references? :P