Idiot!

Do you ever have trouble making a decision . . .
and then once you've finally decided and taken action . . .
realized it was the WRONG choice . . .
and in that moment it's *crystal* clear????????

 

This seems to be the most sure-fire way for me to determine the right decision!

Whether you have experienced this or not, we're gonna talk about it.

 

 

 

For those of you who do not have to endure this suffering, let me explain:

Something happens that really bothers me. For the sake of explanation, let's say someone said that they actually hated my spinach puffs which I take such pride in.

 

The rest of the day I debate how to respond to this person. Do I lash out and say "How dare you pretend all this time"? Do I ignore them and never speak to them again? Do I ask if they have any suggestions for my recipe? I think back to all the times they said they loved my spinach puffs, and try to understand what this person was trying to do to me, all the possible interpretations of their actions... Anyway, this takes up all my thoughts because it bothered me so deeply.

 

Finally, I decide to place a huge pile of spinach puffs before them just to spite them and irritate them the way they irritated me, BUT once I pass the point of no return, I realize that this person is allergic to spinach. That's why they were being so polite in pretending. When they did lash out at me, they had finally become fed up with the fact that I kept trying to make them eat it!

 

Unfortunately, I already put the allergic trigger before the person and made them start swelling up, coughing, and breaking out.

 

Q&A

I just re-read all of my posts on this blog (didn't take long; there are only 4!), and decided that I should post about the answers God has already provided since I last blogged. Here goes:

JOB
Yes, I got job offers and the Lord guided me in my decision which I now thank Him for continuously! I had two Skype interviews, followed by two job offers. Both jobs had things that I liked about it, and both had some disadvantages. It was a really tough call. I asked TONS of people for advice. Being at a camp with lots of people from my field and with more experience than me was an amazing resource for information and advice. Unfortunatley, it got to the point that I had too many opinions, too many stories, and too much going on that I could not discern what God was telling me. Finally, I took a break from all the noise, prayed like crazy, researched, pondered, and prayed some more. I called in my responses to the two school systems. I ended up accepting a job at a private school in my hometown (meaning I get to live at home still!).

I have met tons of students and pray that I have been a good influence on them. I know they are learning a lot. Our first Christmas concert is coming up, which is making me nervous as well as my beginner students. It's their first instrumental concert EVER after all!

FRIENDS
Along with meeting all the students, I have been meeting plenty of new people at church. This has been great! I love getting to know new people! This new network of friends has been such a blessing... and it's been great to have friends in the area after so many college friends travelled away from here.

As for my "old" friends, some of us are keeping in touch. It's a very small number (besides the "facebook friends") but that's ok, because we are creating tighter-knit friendships that way. It's also easy to sacrifice time for a few friends than a whole heapload. That just eats up all your time. I used to prefer having tons of friends, but I've realized that it's just not practical, and I didn't know any of them very well.

Well, I still have plenty of unanswered questions for God to make clear, but I look forward to the journey He has before me!